The Other Supreme Buddha

I read this article yesterday, and I think it influenced the manifest content of my dreams last night. Also while I’m on the topic the “Stuff White People Like” blog, I feel like mentioning that it often cuts really close to the bone. It’s not fun to see how closely one fits a stereotype!

Anyway, I dreamt that the Buddha pulled up to my house in a blue car, just as another blue car was pulling out of my driveway. He resembled a statue of orange stone. I invited him in, and offered him anything he cared to eat out of my fridge. He didn’t find anything he cared for, though – most of the things were half-eaten – so he asked whether I had any paint (or possibly I offered him some paint). While I was looking, I asked the Buddha whether or not he was a vegan. He told me that the “real” Buddha was a vegan, but that he wasn’t, because he was only the Buddha for people who were just “into” Buddhism. At this point I noticed that he was dressed like a hippy, and had a scruffy beard and sunglasses. I felt a little sorry for him, although he did not seem unhappy.

I found some light blue paint, and some tent pegs, and gave these to the ersatz Buddha. I have a vague memory of him chugging the paint, but the dream is hazy at this point; just after this, I woke up.

My analysis so far indicates that the Buddha might be a representation of myself on my return from hospital. Also, if we merge the symbols of the cars and the paint (as they were the same colour), the fact that the Buddha came out of the car, but took the paint into himself, implies a confusion of the inside/outside relation.

Published in: on May 9, 2009 at 4:32 pm  Comments (1)  

Sexism in the Aristocats

At the risk of seeming fixated on Disney (but then, I am), I thought I’d mention this. In the Aristocats, the cat Duchess’s two male children, Berlioz and Toulouse, are named after a French nineteenth-century composer and painter, respectively – appropriately, since Toulouse paints and Berlioz plays piano in an early scene. Her daughter, by contrast, is given the much more generic name “Marie” – possibly after Marie Antoinette. Why not name her after a nineteenth-century prima donna or something (since Marie sings along to Berlioz’ playing)? I sense a lack of respect for women in their creative endeavours…

Hm, in the time it took me to write that out, I managed to lose interest in the subject. Yawn.

Published in: on May 5, 2009 at 11:41 am  Comments (1)  
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Pizza Night

I think that it’s about time I returned to my blog. My subject today? The last pizza night on Kilroot ward!

Thursday’s was the night when four guys with anxiety disorders got themselves some pizza. Ross, Peter, Sean and I assembled in my room to order our usual from Dominos in Crumlin. Before this got started, though, Ross pointed out to Peter and Sean the view from my room, viz. the big honking rats in the courtyard below. We tried to count them, but they spent a lot of time going in and out of the cover of bushes and holes in the pavement. We only have a rough estimate – I’d say around six.

Ross is on a kick at the moment of exposing people to the triggers of their anxiety (I incidentally think this was the idea behind his mentioning the rats), so he thought I should jack up my social anxiety by making the call to Dominos. Partly because my social anxiety makes it hard for me to say no to people, and partly because it sounded like a good idea, I went through with it. Bad idea. I’m not going to say any more about it, but basically Ross had to call them back and actually place the order.

Anyway, our appetites whetted by our rat-watching, we really dug into the pizza, wedges, and so on, when they arrived. Topics of conversation included:

  • How do we divide up all the food?
  • Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (via a comparison of the rats in the courtyard to Shredder).
  • Which mental illnesses are the worst to have? This one got pretty involved and confusing pretty quickly, because things like the intensity of the illness had to be taken into account.
  • Which mental illnesses do the characters from Winnie-the-Pooh have? Apparently this has been put on somebody’s blog before, but I can’t find it anywhere, so here it is again: Pooh Bear has an eating disorder; Piglet has an anxiety disorder; Rabbit has OCD; Eeyore has major depression; Owl is approaching senility; Tigger has ADHD; Christopher Robin has gender dysphoria.
  • What is the deal with the nurses in St. Patrick’s Hospital? They come into our room every hour to check up on us. They write down what we’re up to – it goes into our files! They force us out of bed in the morning! They call me on the phone even though I find this extremely anxiety-provoking! It’s all most frustrating, and we find it really brings down the bearability of the whole “psychiatric hospital experience” for us. I’m considering setting up a patients’ union to somehow voice and maybe address these complaints.
  • Which country is the best – France or Italy, and then, after some thought, France or Spain. Or maybe it was Italy or Spain. To modify a Simpsons quote – “Nobody ever chooses France.”

I feel like I’m forgetting a lot, but hey, if anyone wants to add anything, there’s a “comments” feature. I’m off to watch a Woody Allen film – I sort of want to write an essay on hypnotism as a theme in his films.  Sayonara!

Published in: on May 2, 2009 at 6:52 pm  Comments (3)  
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